Another month, another blog name change. What is that all about!? If there was an award for most indecisive blog-owner, that’d be me. However crazy all the changes, there’s a story behind it all.
In grade 11 I started my first blog out of media class obligation – but it actually sparked a bit of a fire within me. That under-designed and lime green blog made me realize that I love to write, specifically about the things I was learning on this crazy ride we call life.
Not gonna lie, that’s a tough age to figure out you want to write and be vulnerable in such a public way. Mainly because teenage maturity levels really don’t mix well with that kind of platform – at least from my experience they don’t. I think back to some of the things I posted up to two months ago and I blush out of embarrassment, but then I brush it off because we’re all just learning as we go, right?
There has been such a conviction and passion within me lately to stop letting fear dictate so many elements of my life. For so long I’ve lived with these big dreams, desires, goals and passions, but I’ve let every single excuse and reason not to go after them keep me from just diving in.
Well, God’s been sticking the word fearless into my head, heart, mind, and soul like it’s nobody’s business. All this time I’ve been saying, “I just need to pray about it longer so I know for sure that this is what God wants me to do.” Don’t get me wrong, prayer before action is great and a wonderful practice, but I do believe that sometimes we just have to recognize a conviction when it’s there and jump in. Our goal might not come to fruition, but that’s the beauty of the unknown. That my friends, is the beauty of being fearless.
Fearless doesn’t mean the absence of fear (maybe technically it does, but that’s impossible to achieve if you ask me). Fearless is choosing to live boldly and passionately despite the presence of fear. It’s choosing to put aside the possibility of rejection, embarrassment, judgement, and failure, in order to just go for it (totally paraphrasing T-Swift there). But it’s true, isn’t it? None of us live without ever feeling fear tug a bit at our arm as we start walking towards something so exciting yet so terrifying. However, all of us can choose what voice we listen to: fear, or the God who gave us the conviction and longing for something greater to begin with.
Needless to say, blogging has been my love-hate relationship for a long time. It has been fear’s jackpot in my life, where all my doubts have come into the limelight. But, through God’s goodness and grace, he has instilled a spirit of boldness and confidence in me to just go for it. He could shut the whole thing down in 20 minutes and it’d be worth it – just to consciously place yet another bout of trust in him.
Some of y’all may be wondering what exactly happened that made me come to this realization. Honestly, don’t let anyone ever tell you that God can’t use social media for goodness because he certainly can and definitely does. I came across a blogger named Jenna Kutcher (@jennakutcher on Insta), and her testimony, story, authenticity, and perspective has really just inspired me. She has a podcast called Goal Digger (🎶🎶) and I began listening to it on my commutes to work. Not to be dramatic, but it literally changed my life. Every single episode either makes me so motivated that I have a to-do list 50 items deep by the time I get to work, or I end up balling my eyes out. Either way, I love it.
Now, this blog of mine is not a result of Jenna Kutcher or her podcast. It is a result of years of God gradually teaching me what I need to use this platform for. All along I had the passion but I was missing the purpose.
God has made it clear that this blog needs to serve others. I don’t know how I was so blind to that before, but I’m thankful that my eyes see it now. This blog, nor any of my past ones, are for me. This platform is not for my confidence or self-esteem. It’s not for my own recognition or success. It’s not for me to make money or to start receiving free gifts in the mail. It’s to serve.
Every word, every picture, every drop of vulnerability, and every ounce of encouragement. Every piece of advice and every lesson learned. Every Bible verse and every quote – to serve others. I pray that God would use my words to do just that. To serve you as a reader with encouragement, love, hope, and perspective. To show you that you aren’t alone and to uplift you in your journey – because you are so loved!
I desire for this blog to become a place of community for whoever God brings to it. A place where his name is glorified throughout every high and every low of this life. But above all, a place where you can come to be reminded of the love and grace that has been poured out for you – to read words that help draw you back to His word – for that is the sweetest place to be.
“Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.” – Ephesians 3:20